still sick after all these years

Today was eventful.

Got up. Late for doctor number one's appt. (missed bus). Got lectured by doctor number one in doctor number one's office about being late and why I should listen to the specialist she sent me to who may change my meds (you know, the ones that actually make me feel better).

Uncontrollably broke down in doctor number one's office wailing 'when am I EVER going to get the health care I need?' Got note to be off work for two weeks (unpaid of course). Doctor agrees to read literature I left her and refer me to another specialist.

Same day, get call from doctor number 2 (had left desperate message with doctor number 2 a week ago to plead to be taken on as a patient and forgot about it - memory lapses are clearly a defense mechanism). Doctor number 2 actually provides care I need, meaning he prescribes dessicated thyroid for my hypothyroidism and assesses for adrenal fatigue using the cortisol salivary test (surprisingly uncommonly used in a major city in Canada).

Trying to be strong, but appointment with doctor number 2 isn't until November. Trying to figure out how to live off hubby's salary for 4 months without burning through savings too much.

Neurofeedback appt. is tomorrow, and I'm going twice a week now. Hopefully this will quickly put me back on a healing path.

I'm the only person I know who gets sicker from going on vacation because she's left her safety net, then needs to take more time off to recover from vacation.

(This has been a rank and file report). Days like this are all too common.